I selected the wrong address filler on 4 of my Christmas parcels from Walmart to an address that doesn’t exist and somehow one of them was delivered and received. It’s an apartment just down the street so I ran down to double check that it wasn’t in the lobby but it was no where to be seen. One Christmas present out and somehow, I still have inner peace.
I’m in a place where I’ve realized, I have no control over situations in my life. I can exercise control, but at the end of the day, I really can’t control what life throws at me unexpectedly. I have more peace over some things than others.
My kids in the morning with their breakfast routine is chaos. Inevitably one is bugging the other or not getting ready quick enough and there is a mad dash to get him into his snowsuit and out the door. Those moments, it’s funny, because every day it happens, and it’s like every day I’m surprised it happens and I panic to deal with it all.
I’ve started listening to a meditation for 5 minutes each day on a psalm. It’s been relaxing and I like how short it is for a busy mom. Most of my day is filled with “Mommy! Mommy! Mommy!”, so I recognize I can’t necessarily have quiet in my outside world, but in my inside world, I am trying to cultivate a space of peace and quiet.
That includes turning off the noise inside me. My brain will ruminate about so many things if I let it that aren’t good for me and before I know it, I’ve worked myself into an upset and I don’t even know why. Sometimes I don’t appreciate the quiet times I am blessed with and choose to replay instances that stressed me out with my kids that day. It just doesn’t make any sense.
I like to play the piano, it’s one of the few times where everything inside of me goes silent and I am just lost in the music and focused on what to play. It allows me to express feelings inside me that have been bottled up all day.
I like to journal and pray when I spend time with God, it keeps me focused and helps me reflect on where I am at, and helps me get in tune with how I am feeling and where I want to be. Giving him my times where I have not been at my best also allows me to feel release from guilt and shame which tie into non-peaceful feelings of anxiety and distress.
What are some things you like to do to bring peace into your life?
I’d love to hear some of your ideas to ease away tension and calm shouting thoughts. Instrumental music? Candles?
For this moment, I’m letting go of the lost Christmas present and giving it to God knowing that this is a little blip in the grand scheme of things, and if he wants me to have it back, I will.
See and Wait, 