I’ve been called a fanatic, I’ve been criticised and scoffed at for my faith in Jesus’ return. People gossip about my hope in the rapture and laugh. Sometimes it’s difficult but most of the time I don’t let it phase me. I live my life in light of his soon return and turn my sight to what really matters, even if others don’t understand.
It’s summer time, my kids are home, we do family things. We went to Disney World in May, isn’t it funny that I saw man wearing a shirt there that read, “Normal isn’t coming back, Jesus is.” Our next trip was to our original wedding place to get some family photos done. I had to smile when I saw a giant billboard on the way which read, “Are you ready for Jesus’ return?” Even in the midst of my day to day life, Jesus shows up, gently reminding me I’m on the right path.
The message at my local church yesterday rang along the same lines, “Come to Jesus, he’s coming sooner than you think.”
I have dreams, I have visions, people can chalk it up to bipolar… I know different because they line up with other believer’s dreams and visions who don’t even know each other.
The fact remains, we aren’t there yet. And so what do I do while I’m waiting? I make the best of my time and I do day to day things. Recently my grandmother passed away from breast cancer. I mourn for her but know I will see her again soon. I’m grateful for my hope in Christ, it comforts me. My family and friends also comfort me, I know I am not alone in my grief and I try my best to let it out in healthy ways.
Two days ago I read my Bible and the scriptures were about mourning. I could barely bring myself to read them but I did, and the tears flowed. Jesus was with me and I leaned into him. I felt seen and held by him.
My husband has been a pillar of strength for me and has helped so much with my boys, giving me alone time where I needed it. I did do some therapeutic shopping, some for others and some for myself and God really blessed me with some things that were perfect for me and them for remarkably low prices. I felt his warmth and love.
I have been so appreciative of the prayers people have prayed over me and my family as well. My boys have been so well behaved and sweet and just all around easy for me to care for. So much that I was able to write this blog post while they entertained themselves for a while.
I’ve also found some books to quiet my mind that make me happy. Even my hair seems to be having better days! Honestly I’m just so incredibly grateful for this time of healing and processing difficult emotions in a safe space.
My online church family has also blessed me by continuing to share our hope that pain will ultimately not be the end of things, that one day soon, we will be with our bridegroom Jesus Christ and we will from that day forth know nothing but joy, laughter and the utmost happiness. One day, there will be no more death, there will be no more sorrow or pain and Christ will wipe every tear from our eyes. One day… I will wait for that day.
See and Wait, 