I struggled to determine whether to write a book I had an idea for last year. It is fiction (I always thought I’d write Christian non-fiction self help books) but that is not the direction I ended up going in when I finally got the idea.
Yesterday I made a list of reasons to write it and reasons not to. After walking through my 3 reasons “not to” with my husband, I realized, they were not valid.
I thought 1. it couldn’t be God honoring because, at least for now, I don’t see Jesus making an appearance in the novel. 2. It was also concerned about possibly being asked personal questions in an interview (See how I get way ahead of myself?) . 3. I reasoned how soon I think Jesus is coming back and I thought I didn’t have enough time, but nobody knows the day or hour. They were all excuses.
My 8 year old son wrote some cute stories on paper we taped together for him a little while ago. He illustrated them and everything. When I shared my doubts, he looked at me and said, “Even I did it Mommy, you can too.”
I read somewhere that if God wants you to write, he will give you the words and last year I had an entire book practically downloaded into my brain within 2 days.
As my life played out this year, one of my friends had her book published, I met a mom at school who self published two books and that’s when I got thinking. However earlier this month, we had a friend of my youngest child come over with her mom. The mom and I instantly clicked. It turns out she is a published author and she offered an opportunity for a wealth of advice on self publishing knowing all the ins and out from her own experiences and researching it. She seemed to offer a possible mentorship. I felt like God was really sending me all the signs.
So yesterday I got the book back out and I wrote 1400 words last night, finishing where I left off in chapter 2. It just poured out.
I’ve decided to step out in faith and write the book. If it’s God will and He can use it great. Otherwise I have prayed that He will keep me from it if it’s not in His will.
I’m nervous, I’m excited, I actually cried a bit.. it’s a childhood dream to have a book published. My own 5 year old school momento from the past had a space for what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote: Author
Is this really happening? I don’t know but I’m about to find out. Guess you’ll have to just wait and see!
Have a beautiful day!
Lindsey
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